new years with my bests...

i missed you idiots.... a lot!

i love you fools more than anything! and i cant wait for next summer! possible OZARKS TRIP! hells yes... i enjoyed that trip immensely last year... it was the perfect ending to our reign at ALHS.... we owned it! :)


can't wait to celebrate the night away with you!!!

hopefully the weather cooperates so i can drive to the 55082 tomorrow for the lady's birthday... i will be sincerely bummed if i cant make it!!! LIKE REAL PISSED!


happy new year to all!

that is all :)

photography!

sooooo my friend nicole's boyfriend is a photographer, and i think he is genius!

here is his website

http://www.pk-worldwide.com/


and this is one of my favorite photos!

its the eiffel tower and i find the angle to be totally interesting and filled with ridiculous visual pathways... i love it


















photo by: patrick kelley




he is great! check out his website!


that is all :)

holy... i want to watch it again.

the black swan was fucking amazing!

natalie portman blew me away.. she is an amazing actress but this brought her to a whole new level... the oscar buzz is totally necessary.....

the costuming was insane... i loved it!

SOOOO FUCKING GOOD!

that is all!

i miss this woman

i miss you lady!!!!

CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU ON THE CELEBRATION OF YOUR DAY OF BIRTH!!!!











maybs we could match!




love love love love you


that is all

dear friends

sooo... its been about a month since we've had any actual meaningful contact... and then you get mad when i say im not too excited to come home... but hey! WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN?!

i want to stay here and hang out with people who actually want to see me and dont feel obligated to be friends with me because "we have been friends for so long that its just how it is"

fuck that.. make an effort or i wont be around... ive reached out multiple times... im over it... if i see you over break thats great... but if not, im over it... and im sorry thats how it has to be, but im not a "convenience" friend... i dont just sit around waiting.. thats stupid and pointless..


THAT. is all

keep pushing

i am working so hard, and i feel as though my pile of "to do" doesnt get any smaller... i finished my two major projects and feel incredibly confident about both... you would think that if you finished two huge ones there would just be a few more things to finish up... no... your list doesnt shrink. 2d portfolio, english resume, history quizzes and test, 2d online quizzes.... i want to feel accomplished but i cant bring myself to be proud just yet.. thursday at 1120.. i can start to feel relief... until then, its late nights, caffeine, emotional breakdowns...

JESUS, i had my 3D final selected for the foundation show at the end of the school year... i should be elated... but what happened? i got to my car, and broke down? thats not the correct reaction.. im just tired.. i need a break... i miss my best friend... who is really busy with his own finals... but it would help me to know that i have someone who is excited to see me when i get home.... i love where i am at, i am no longer just another "student" i have made a name for myself, the concepts of each of my final projects are slowly blending together... i am developing a style... but i just need to finish these next two days.. its hard for me to be so stressed, especially because i havent had this much pressure to create things before... i like the pressure... but at the same time... such intense work loads and deadlines are almost stripping personality from my projects... at least we had more time to work on our final projects... they actually mean something... they show me... they are noah christopherson originals... not just a run of the mill project that looks like everyone elses in the class... i am proud of where i am... i am proud of what i have done and what i have learned... i just need the time off to register what i have obtained and actually see how it is applied in art of my own style, with no rules or guidelines....

will i have enough creativity in me to create over break? am i burnt out? is it just this week? does my creativity run out? have all the rules stifled me? when is it time to break free and create for me? i know foundation year is important, and the education i am getting is really high quality... but nearly all of my projects lack personality... and i know i have a lot of personality... they blend in... people copy ideas, input changes our design.. but it doesnt make it more personal... it makes it more of a factory of meaningless pieces.

"i dont really believe in flooding the market with loads of goods that dont mean much... you end up losing your identity"- lee alexander mcqueen

i know its school and im not a professional and i am just frustrated with the slow pace of time passing.. and i know it will change... but for now, in my current weak emotional state... i need to vent about the lack of fun im having when creating some of my week to week projects for school... is that so bad?

I WANT TO HAVE A PERSONALITY AGAIN...


I MISS THE SPARKLE IN MY EYE AND THE DRIVE TO CREATE BEAUTIFUL THINGS.


WHEN THE FUCK IS IT COMING BACK?


that is all.

you see right through me

230 am... finals week... day 1. awesome...

this is what i look like right now... even with my glasses on you can still see the bags forming... which is why tomorrow the glasses wont come off... i plan on looking like hell all week and being cracked out on caffeine... if i crash, so be it, but this week is much too important to just get by... i must get these things done ahead of time... my goal is 1120 on thursday morning.. then its golden for a month....







"i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul"

those words are beautiful and even more so in french. which is what they will be in when they are permanently inked onto me forearms... i just feel inside that everything in life is determined by how much control you have over yourself... you create your destiny, which is why i believe in karma, everything you do creates your outcome... which is why, sometimes, it pays to be selfish, but at the same time you must create positive pathways for others to succeed in their own journeys...

Je Suis le Maître de Mon Sort

Je Suis le Capitaine de Mon Ame

french is just so sensual and beautiful... it brings new life to words... even if you dont understand it... it is still soothing and beautiful...

there are many things that are important to me... and fate is one of them.

so when i die at the age of 35... i will have succeeded in everything that i dream of. i dont plan on growing old... i dont foresee anything past the age of 35... and some people think that is scary and weird... i think its natural... some people see themselves growing gray with the one they love, i see myself living a fast and fulfilling life with people who love me... and going out in style; with a bang. 

that is all. 

ironing

yeah... ironing my 3d project... i hate elmers glue... but it looks amazing... so il deal with it...


my mom decorated the christmas tree without me... i was sad...


but it looks pretty good... cant wait to be done weaving... it will look amazing and then the giant weight will be lifted off of my chest! only to go onto more homework! :)


brie is making cute noises... haha shes preshus... yeah i know... precious... im just that bored...

break soon... then exploring the city since i will have time!

that is all.

today is a new day

today is my new beginning... i am just letting things go where they need to and seeing where it all ends up. i hope everyone can do the same...

everything is repairable.. but everyone must be willing to admit fault. and not blame it on one person.


thats enough on that topic as its getting nowhere being posted on blogs...


thank you, jake.. i appreciate what you said.


now! onto weaving and homework! :) maybe bread and chocolate with kate muffin!

that is all :)

thursdays... ugh... typical lay around day!

ughhhhhhhh i get so bored!!!

 just doin some 3D weaving!

getting ready for the mixer...




















I JUST GET SO BORED!!!

that is all!

so good :(

one of my absolute favorite choir pieces ever... its just so simple and beautiful!


i miss choir...

i almost love choir more than fashion... ALMOST.... but not quite as much!


that is all.

classic day at como

we went to COMOOOOOO today!


it was ridiculously cold, but the indoors were clammy and awkward... how fun

this one is nice....

TYPICAL DAY.... "who are you texting?" "uh... why?"
the background of this is gorgeous... damn...

this photo is really descriptive of our world today... there is all this beauty around us but we are so enraptured by our technology that we just dont see it... so sad... but im guilty sometimes!

typical noah... SO FULL OF JOY...???


brie... you look SO enthused to be in the frame with me... i mean i know i look good, lady. BUT COME ON! YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME!








:)

that is all.